- May 1, 2001
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Like the title says, we just broke up. It was mostly mutual, but it hurts so bad I am at a loss for words at the moment. While it may be true I am young, we both are mature beyond our years. It took me forever to find someone with whom I shared common goals and didn't strictly want to party all the time. We had been together for quite some time, and planned on getting married eventually. She was my life, and I wonder if I will ever be able to find someone to love as much. Being my first true grown-up relationship I'm sure I am taking it harder than I should. All I know is that we had planned on spending our lives together, and I cannot now imagine another day without her in it. I have been crying like a little girl, and I hate that. There is only one person I know of that I would be comfortable crying in front of and could make me feel better, but that lone soul is her. I'm not one to cry much, so thats a lot for me. Things had been heading south here lately as we are both stressed with class and work, but i never would have thought it would lead to this. Something was not working and we both knew it. She thinks we have too much we don't agree on to make the future work. While it is true we don't see eye to eye on everything, I had alwasy thought our love would overcome that. Guess I was wrong. We do still love each other, and that makes it even tougher yet. Like I had said, I am at a loss for words, but I do know that this is by far the most severe pain I have ever felt. I never fully comprehended what was meant by a broken heart but I can grasp that concept now all too well. I am not expecting to get any sympathy here, nor am I looking for any. Just a chance to vent with some of the folks I consider to be my true friends. Thanks for listening